I really really want to sleep… don’t feel like working – with so many exciting things going on… I spent the night going back and forth from Opera house to a nearby cafe, then to home and back, then to my office and back…
…and all that time I couldn’t help feeling guilty and responsible for everything that’s happening now. We all are responsible, aren’t we? But some are brave enough to stand up and fight, some, like me – look for excuses in not liking Levon or supporting Vahan – and some openly admit they are being raped by Serzh, and they even like it.
I wonder, how can Levon not feel responsible for all these people? And if he’s feeling responsible, how hard must it be to cope with all this weight? Anyways – I’m not here for Levon. I’m here, because I deeply sympathize with these people. I always feel emotionally attached to people who sincerely believe in their cause. And I feel guilty for not supporting Levon – but, I just can’t! I dislike him. I don’t think he has ever done anything right! And I know, this feeling of guilt is only the result of LTP’s PR machine working on my consciousness.
Now I just really want to sleep. What was I doing out there all night anyway?
I’m really pissed off with the low amount of votes ARF-Dashnaktsutyun got. It can’t be that low! I’m sure Serzh stole at least half of ARF-Dashnaktsutyun votes. But “our Vahan” is silent, must have made a deal. Perhaps he’ll soon own a new restaurant in the center of Yerevan or two more casinos in the suburbs? That’s how things are done over here… Vazgen is silent. Messiah Geghamyan is also silent, Artur is showing signs of life, but only sending Heghine Bisharyan to the rally. Too arrogant to come himself? Well – he learned from the best, he learned from Levon, didn’t he?
…looking at these people struggling to keep the fires burning and craving for their little share of warmth, I wonder – what are they really trying to prove? It seems, they’re just demonstrating how fed up they are with the current government. There’s perhaps 1500 people left now. Once in a while Nikol or Levon will show up on the stage, and everyone starts shouting – “Levon, Levon!”. Then they’ll go – “Serzhik, heratsir!”. The child in me urges me to join in, shouting “Levon, heratsir! Serzhik, heratsir! Go to hell, all of you, dirty politicians!”. “Levon, Levon!” the crowd roars again, with fireworks shot out to the dark sky. They see him as the “only hope to remove the regime”, they tell me. Well – in every country one can find at least 1500 people who are as much fed up with the government. So is that it?
These people here – they just want a king, a lot of them. They don’t care for democracy, or electoral fraud. They just want the “daddy” to come and put things right. Then there are some really bright individuals, who sincerely hope for justice and democracy… and there are a bunch of young airheads – rock musicians, their fans… these lot are enjoying themselves. There’s fires, there’s free food that Khachatur Suqiasyan (Grzo) bought from SAS Supermarket. Ironically, a well informed source tells me, that the young employees of the Supermarket were bussed around town, entering different polling stations and voting. Some of them have voted 6-7 times my source tells me. (NOTE: There has been an official rejection of this claim from SAS Supermarket)
OK. Enough of sick thoughts. I’m going sleeping…